Years ago my 2ND Mom aka MS Karen shared the beautiful jewel with me! (She is a precious jewel in my life) it was a book by the name “The game of life and how to play.” This book opened my eyes to New possibilities, I endeavor to read it one a year and at time go back and study a specific topic Flo(Florence Shinn) teaches.
In “the game of life” the blessing of Health, wealth, Love and perfect self expression resonated with me on all accords.
My self expression is deeply rooted in my art creations. I go to such a peaceful and meditative state of ecstasy when I draw my style.
Each line a connection to the Creator and as I wake up and step away from self expression. I allow the piece to speak to me. And the movement continues.
Another aspect of my journey in self expression is my Spirituality and being a loving person. I think that song had it down right “what the world needs is love, it is the only thing that there is just to little of”
There was a quote from What the Bleep!? Down the Rabbit Hole
“…there is no right or wrong does that mean there is a free for All? Absolutely not, I mean the problem I have with right or wrong in these categories is not that I want a free for All it is that right or wrong doesn’t nearly go far enough…..There is no body keeping records up there…..The records are here (heart and mind) and I am going to have to deal with them that is far more painful then a record keeping God that is up in the sky. So that anyone setting out on the path of true enlightenment will be absolutely impeccable in everything they do. Is it because of fear of damnation? No. Or of the punishment of God or because I have sinned and haven’t gotten forgiveness, no, no, no. I mean these are all excuses that keeps us away frothed real problem. The really enlightened person will see every action has a reaction with which I must deal and if I am wise I will not do stuff that will cause me to have to face it and resolve it and balances in my soul later. That is the real criteria…”
This quote sums up my desire to stand in love because it resonates with my soul so deeply. This brought such a clarity to me pertaining to the core of harmony and my intention behind being loving.
But back to Flo she inspired me to practice being in my perfect self expression which is the true authentic self, the loving abundant person that we were designed to be. When I vibrate in my perfect self expression I must say it feels pretty darn joyful!!!
For instance me sharing with you
Life Of Visioned Elegance the freedom for your perfect self expression.
Grocery stores packed with eager lovers buying gifts for the sweet expression of love.
Love being my all time favorite subject just aligns with the main reason Why I SOOOO Love Valentine’s Day!!
As a child it was fun receiving candy from my classmates on Valentine’s Day, I also enjoyed giving away candy.
In my teen years I have to admit Valentine’s Day was dreadful.
No more mandatory class participation with cards and candy, which resulted no more gifts if you were not a couple.
But dating was not on my agenda, sure I had very strong likes to people. However no legitimate dating.
One year I took a stance and decided to make Valentine’s Day MY FESTIVE LOVE day! I really enjoy giving gifts but rarely gave to myself so instead of waiting for some dude to do right by me, I decided to be my own Valentine.
So, I bought myself this cute little white and red teddy bear holding a red heart that said I love you along with a small plastic flower for my new teddy bear to hold. For my friends and teachers I bought them some flowers and candy. It was so delightful giving away tokens of love to my friends and teachers!!!
I was hooked. It dawned on me that I could be my loving self and blame it on Valentine’s Day!!!
Another year I can remember walking to each class with a gallon water container with flowers in it. I wanted the flowers to last as long as possible. It tickled me that even Random people would ask for a flower.
For the most part Valentine’s Day for me was about celebrating the people I love and not just my romantic interest, it is the gift giving part of Christmas to me. Now my meaning on Christmas is a whole other story because there are different ways that Christmas celebration has come about, but how are we honoring Jesus by buying gifts for one another on Christmas. When honoring Jesus with his teachings of love, forgiveness and brotherhood doesn’t that equate to more than just black Friday electronics and doodads. Are not his teachings a heart centered virtue for kindness, harmony and consideration for one another everyday of the year? Not just Christmas, Easter or Sundays? Okay, Okay back to Valentine’s Day!!!!
In my Love Expression on Valentine’s Day I have even been know to cook an Italian dinner from scratch either fettuccine Alfredo a recipe I learned from my Dad or Lasagna from scratch topped with chocolate chip cookies and/or brownies also from scratch shared with the people I adore.
Other joys I experienced for Valentine’s was placing candy bags on my Co-works desk before they arrived.
And one year when I was serving at Church, I gave several gifts and one young lady that attended the youth center bought me a red and white puppy holding a heart. I made sure to give her a huge hug for my gift!!
This year was the 1st year I was blessed with this pleasant surprise of a goody bag at my desk! I am fairly new to my position and team but one of my co-works invested energy and giving a team of 19 people a Valentine’s goody bag!! It put a huge smile on my face when I arrived at my desk!!
Also this year I was thankful to share Valentine’s Day with such an amazing person!! Our 1st Valentine’s Day together.
He showered me with Love and gave me gifts to increase my health and well being!!
But He in all manners has a way of making everyday feel like Valentine’s Day!!
I hope that you had a wonderful Valentine’s Day too!!
1 Corinthians 13:4-8 is one of my favorite verses in the Bible.
Below is my interpretation of that verse:
Love is patient and kind; Love up lifts yourself and others, it is equal and unconditional. It is willing to submit and keep peace. It is willing to be bold in truth. Love bears All things, believes All things, Hopes All things, endures All things, Love never ends……. Faith, Hope and Love abides these three; but the greatest of these is Love!!
“LOVE IS the DETERMINING FACTOR FOR ELEVATED EVERLASTING TRANSFORMATION; CHOOSE TO LOVE AND CHANGE THE WORLD” ~ Erica Cameron
“We are all functioning at a small fraction of our capacity to live fully in its total meaning of loving, caring, creating and adventuring. Consequently, the actualizing of our potential can become the most exciting adventure of our lifetime” ~Herbert Otto
It was the 2nd year of my mom’s birthday after her departure from this physical realm.
It was not just her birthday but mine also. My whole life I always thought this was one of the coolest things ever.
The 1st year of her being gone I remember bracing myself for the flood of emotional grief; but in the mist of my grieving I received an abundance of love and support from my family and friends.
I was smothered in positive words of love.
This 2nd year I really did not know what to expect. A lot of things in my life had changed.
More importantly I would actually label most of the changes as positive.
For the 1st time in about 4 years I was in a healthy romantic relationship.
My Handsome King made it a beautiful birthday experience we celebrated the weekend before.
He took me to Cirque Sol and to one of my favorite restaurants. I had so much fun being with him.
Finally the actual day came but despite the magically moments I shared with him I ended up allowing my heart to be broken by having certain expectations of other people I held important.
I endeavored to be understanding and knew that there was a logical explanation.
Therefore I buried my hurt feelings.
That was just like one nails on the coffin. One of the pivotal points that paved the way for my consequential actions.
I started making different decisions in my life that brought about questions and concern.
Relationships were strained I caused a fair share of hurt in this process.
The pinnacle point of persuasion came and on this particular day, moment inspired the seed for Calm After The Storm.
Angelic Words of Compassion
I arrived at home, my 2nd mother (who is my spiritual guide and has been a loving power in my life since I was in my late teens) and I started talking on the phone.
Like a volcano eruption all the emotions I buried were being dug up.
Frustration, pain and anger began spouting off.
Immediately, I took off my shoes and walked outside the wet pavement felt soothing under my bare feet. Being grounded.
Feeling slightly stubborn and resistant I argued my emotional stance, however when God speaks it just makes sense.
My 2nd mom was shining her sunshine as only she could do over that garden of emotional landmines in my heart.
It took some time to cool down.
As I could feel the tension being released the core of my being. Taking deep breaths shoulders relaxing.
We started talking about other subjects and I was brought to such a peaceful moment.
I opened my eyes to the beauty around me, I inhaled the freshness of the earth and to my visual comfort I saw these droplets of leftover rain sitting so gracefully delicate upon the leaves.
This time God spoke to me from the inside.
As if to say my child the storm is over remember that my rain provides nourishment.
What is my decision
“You can suffer the pain of change or suffer remaining the way you are.” ~Joyce Meyer
I could be justified in my emotions or be justified in the truth.
The situations that occurred even the one of losing my mom gave me an opportunity to find clarity but sometimes in the storm our vision becomes blurred.
We can become more focused on the rain rather than the shelter.
We may be turned upside down or be turned around.
The beauty of it all is when we can surrender to Love. It leads us back on path. Love gently guides us with a beacon of trust.
Love restores and strengthens.
Love nourishes and forgives.
Love can even enlighten you for a direction to new more sophisticated glorious bountiful path way.
My choice to change my emotion was ultimately me loving myself.
Choosing to suffer the pain of change which I can’t say is a total pain. The actual change can be even humorous at times especially when you can look back and laugh at what in the world was I thinking. The sobering up from the pain.
As for the memory of my mom the fact of us being born on the same day will always remain totally awesome to me but I realize I don’t have to hold myself hostage from enjoying my life just because she is not physically here. I know that she would want me to celebrate her and to live my life.
Even better I acknowledge I am here because of her and of course my dad, but I know my mom wants me to be happy.
She was such a creative, colorful person and who she is will forever be apart of me. Which leads me to the next quote by Charlie “Tremendous” Jones.
“Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.” ~ Charlie “Tremendous” Jones
I grew this day. Thanks to my 2nd mom, thanks to myself, and thanks to all parties involved!
This is not to say that I have everything figured out. It is just that my willingness to add one more digit to the infinite code of wisdom will gives me a transformation of perspective.
To focus on the positive aspects.
As my mentor David Corbin states
“You are either rip and rotten or green and growing.”
The pain and suffering would have been the rotten the continued decay and erosion of important relationships to me. But the love is like the green and growing willing to water with compassion, understanding and compromise.